level of study materiality

after a traumatic experience of my test yesterday...
after 15 yrs of education...
after looking at my peers...
maybe i'm nt study material afterall..
damn.

i just hope to finish the last leg of the race..
running runnin..
2 more months..
then i'll be able to do the things i want..

the first thing i'll do... i'll look for you. in hope you'll still be there. as anyone you wish to be. as long as you are there. it's you i care about...

amnesia. lack of sleep.
anyway, have been losing sleep the past weeks. never cld get an eye shut. wonder wad's wrong.. stress? anxiety? i just hope to get rid of all these...
how to run the mile if i dnt get rest?
i'm wearing out... down and out... (but why can't i lose some weight?? arghz.)

dream.dream.dream.
i'm so looking forward to getting a new mp3 player but need time to go check them out.. haha. any recommendations?? =)

[i breathe you. i feel you. it's for you i live and hope, yet in dreams i find.]