question of love

questions.

moods.

loneliness.

have you ever felt like you can't breathe or that you can't see clearly anymore.
and mixed feelings come most of the time.
and things are no longer just black and white.
tints and shades of black.

tell me. someone.
i thot i could be a love guru. ha. just too bad.
judgement error.

what is it like to be in love?
love seems to have taken a different form all of a sudden.
the passion. the longing. the heartaches.
the happiness. the joy. the excitement.

love. tell me what it is actually.
i could not tell what love is anymore as i aged.
did the pace of my growing up quickened?

me? accidentally in love. lost in love.

as you age, your heart runs like still water.
love doesn't seem like love.
yet you know very well, the person is someone you truely love.

some choose to love, yet others choose to be loved.
expectations changes. meeting expectations.
the only thing you know is:
the love of my life, i can't lose yet i may not be able to have.