Monday, July 04, 2005

crummy & dejected

breathlessness. hatred.
maybe i do hate myself sometimes.
or most of the time.

skeptical. cynical.
negativity. gloomy.
depressive. abusive.
temperamental. irritable.
pensive. blue.

darkness glooms and it's drawing near.
words make a man. words break a man.

i think i'm tired. i can't breathe.
want to give it all up. yet i can't let go.
contradiction lies within. struggles aplenty.

gawd, don't i sound like i'm goin to kill myself or tt i'm going to cry buckets?
maybe the suicide hotlines should open 24 hrs... (for your info, it doesn't...)

as for now, negativity reigns...

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