caught in the middle

i hurt my hand. it hurts. it's freaking painful. the price to pay whn u ain't paying attention :(

caught. caught right in the middle. torn. torn apart.
have you ever come across a scenario where ur decided actions would end up being somewhat like a 'win-lose' situation?

it's akin to choosing between:
(a) stabbing ur heart; or
(b) stabbing ur heart and 'jabbing' it further

it's highly probable that ppl would choose option (b) as the one that hurts more. but what about the initial stab? what if the initial stab for (a) was so deep that it had pierced right thru...? is this a so-called moral dilemma?

je ne sais pas. (hope i spelt it correctly cox i'm lazy to check)

i don't think i could ever decide between (a) or (b). it hurts just as much i guess.

i'm having a mental block. i can't blog anymore. but thots are accumulating and they are haunting... life sucks, doesn't it?

is it the dead silence of the night or other factors that are inducing the negativity?