indescribable.

vulnerability.

i finally understood the meaning.

to cherish when you've lost.

i'm glad i realised.

to make someone hate me.

i am darn good at tt.

tell me how much you hate me.

i'll be listening.

the deafening silence.

i started to panic.

"life goes on" was thrown at me

i shuddered.

the sudden change.

i was taken aback.

if that's the truth.

i was afraid for once.

self-denial.

it didn't last.

the reasons were clearly understood.

thou they weren't wad i wanted.

abandonment.

i feel it.

gone forever.

i can sense it coming.

the quiet speech.

for the 1st time.

the feeling of death and exasperation.

choking and regurgitating.

tell me all the things even those i don't wish to hear.

the truth. the emotions. the thots.

i still wana know.

i will ask.

one day.

if waiting is the key to the box of unknown, i ...

are you happy? i will ask it. again. someday.