MOoD SwiNg LaSt WedNEsDAy...

well, it's 12pm... thou it may nt be the exact second... well, i thank all those who were concerned abt me and my SWOLLEN PIGHEAD... i love u guys and i reli appreciate ur concern... =) i'm feeling much beta, bt a 'lil tight at my jaw.. so i still can't eat much stuff, i can only swallow... DAMn.. if it's because of this tt i m gona put on some MEAT... BOY, i'll kill myself....

i wana talk about somethng... think for most of my frends, they know tt i live life without regrets, i do as i will and i live my life to the best as i can and as happily as i ever cld... :) i'm proud of doing that and i enjoy being happy... cheerful... no regrets.. invulnerable, if that's wad my stupid boy might say.

bt there's something which i regret a 'lil... or i mean i will never forgive myself for. i dnt think i can ever remove that regret. i hate it. it stabs. it's an open wound. it can never heal. tt was the cause of my mood swing tt led to the accident which i managed to escape. wad if i was knocked dwn, my regrets wld be buried with me. is it a deep-dark secret or just some things i can't get over?

mood swings. crestfallen. depressed.

behind that regret, there's a tinge of happiness. a contradiction lies within.

i ascertained certain facts, it doen't reli hurt. it just means it's time to put everything into that dark box, tape it up, and into that dark basement, it goes. a book flipped opened by a gust of wind, kept open by gusts of wind directed at it, is now forced to close by the strength of my hands. the book is closed. i dnt think i will ever open it again. the book was an all-time favourite, good for reminiscing.

well, i still enjoy being the bubbly and cheerful me... the one that never falls.. the one that shines, the sunshine that lights up everyone's life... jux cox.. I AM ME...

i absolutely hate it when the mood swings get to me. i won't blame it on the weather. cox althou it is raining and cloudy over my pl, i think it's scorching hot at where my stupid boy is. =)

i smile when i think of you. yet i know i make ur blood boil. my apologies. will you forgive me...